theepichumor:

Wanna LAUGH OUT LOUD?! Follow this blog.

(Source: mentalfailure)

frederatorbooks:

Lucy the Dinosaur! by Joey.

-Zoë

Just returned from IFG retreat. 

LPC tomorrow. 

Results out tomorrow. 

So many things on my mind. 

Sometimes I feel so lost..

Ah, dear God. Bless the next few days. And whatever the results may be in a few hours’ time, may You bring peace in my heart - peace that transcends all understanding. Amen.

gofuckingnuts:

Untitled on We Heart It. http://weheartit.com/entry/16790949

youwillfindcallum:

Ivy - Lierre (by jmvnoos in Paris)

A Response from above

So after all my complaints.. Here’s what I read on My Utmost For His Highest http://www.facebook.com/MyUtmostForHisHighest - He is indeed speaking.

If you are going through a time of isolation, seemingly all alone, read John 17 . It will explain exactly why you are where you are— because Jesus has prayed that you “may be one” with the Father as He is. Are you helping God to answer that prayer, or do you have some other goal for your life? Since you became a disciple, you cannot be as independent as you used to be.

God reveals in John 17 that His purpose is not just to answer our prayers, but that through prayer we might come to discern His mind. Yet there is one prayer which God must answer, and that is the prayer of Jesus— “… that they may be one just as We are one …” (John 17:22). Are we as close to Jesus Christ as that?

God is not concerned about our plans; He doesn’t ask, “Do you want to go through this loss of a loved one, this difficulty, or this defeat?” No, He allows these things for His own purpose. The things we are going through are either making us sweeter, better, and nobler men and women, or they are making us more critical and fault-finding, and more insistent on our own way. The things that happen either make us evil, or they make us more saintly, depending entirely on our relationship with God and its level of intimacy. If we will pray, regarding our own lives, “Your will be done” (Matthew 26:42), then we will be encouraged and comforted by John 17, knowing that our Father is working according to His own wisdom, accomplishing what is best. When we understand God’s purpose, we will not become small-minded and cynical. Jesus prayed nothing less for us than absolute oneness with Himself, just as He was one with the Father. Some of us are far from this oneness; yet God will not leave us alone until we are one with Him— because Jesus prayed, “… that they all may be one … .”

Need to clear my room

Need to sleep more

Need to read more

Need to learn to cook

Need to love & forgive

Need to be humble

Need to withhold judgment

Need to be open-minded

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Can’t wait for IFG Retreat this thu-sat, for LPC next mon-thu and for church camp in june :) Pray that my body will be able to survive these camps.. 

Hoping to remove braces soon :) 

I really wonder who I’ll still be keeping in touch with 10-20 years down the road.

As time passes, I find it harder and harder to trust people. And you know that once people lose your trust, it’s super difficult to trust them again

Maybe that’s life. People make mistakes and they disappoint you. But when you make mistakes, you’re often super unconscious of it and think that every one is in the wrong while you’re in the right. Then sometimes you feel so alone in your thinking, blah blah blah.

One thing I SOMETIMES (note: not ALWAYS. must have a disclaimer else I get slammed.) find common about myself and the people around me is that we are super close-minded, perhaps too opinionated for our own good, that when we speak to others we cannot handle it when others think or feel differently away from us. We feel that we are right and others are wrong, and we refuse to rationally and sincerely hear what others have to say. I guess it’s only human to be so - to react so defensively when we face something that are opposing to our views. Sometimes, I wish we would learn to be more humble. It’s a work-in-progress for me too. The thing about humility is that it’s always an on-going process, cos once you think you’ve truly achieved humility, failure is inherent in its very success. Well I guess pride and seeking for self-validation is just human nature.

Sadly I’ve been v disillusioned about the people around me recently. I wonder how things would be like 10 years down the road. Will the gap between us only become bigger? Will our difference in worldviews only diverge further? Will those who seem to be on the same page as me now change? WIll we start walking at different paces such that as time goes by, the distance between us only enlarges? I have no idea. 

Sometimes, this uncertainty is too much for me to handle. 

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For now, I’m just glad that I have time to rest at home. Thank God that I can replace Amitha at her job even if it’s only for 10days. Haha. 

Someone apologized to be today. I realize that I can’t truly define what it means to accept someone’s apologies. Because while I said it’s okay, I still knew at the back of my mind that I would not be wiling to have future conversations with that friend, in order to prevent any potential conflicts. If talking to some people forever feels like a philosophical class debate, such that you have to always be super defensive and be prepared to be attacked and to attack, I’d rather not talk to such people. Increasingly, it’s been like this with many, many people around me. Perhaps to put it bluntly, I avoid talking to people whom (i) i can’t convince and (ii) i can’t win an argument with. But seriously, it’s only human nature right? 

Sometimes, I’m filled w so much bitterness and ‘anguish’ with life, with what’s happening to me, around me, to people around me. Like Job. Sometimes, after bottling it up for so long, you just want to puke it all out. Sometimes, you feel very unjust. Like Job in his numerous charges against God. Why is God putting His hand of protection over people who are seemingly unfaithful to Him, who are seemingly ungodly and sinning in certain areas of their life, who seem to not love Him truly with all their hearts? Sometimes Romans 8:28 makes me feel like I’m deluding myself and consoling myself to make myself feel better about my predicament. Faith in that super famous Hebrews verse is indeed so hard to have. Sigh.

I really like the book of Job by the way. Reading mum’s cool annotated reference bible and WOW it blows me away. The words are really small though, haha

I should really be sleeping… Gosh

DISS-illusioned

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